Road to Spinsterhood

SOOOOOOO. I watched Bridget Jones's Diary during the holidays. If you have watched the film, you will know that Bridget Jones is a thirty-something single woman in London who makes sense of life and love with the help of a surrogate "urban family" of friends in the 1990s and who is on her way to spinsterhood.

I am admittedly, the walking talking younger version of Bridget. Now, is that a good thing? Baby, trust me, it is not a fucking good thing. Am I complaining? Abso-fucking-lutely NOT.

Currently, I don't have a boyfriend. Haven't had a boyfriend since who knows when and at the rate I'm going, I don't think I'm going to have one anytime soon. I'm just so busy appreciating life, building my career, knowing inner-self more, and tons of other things. Especially that I'm gonna be taking the Bar Exam this year. When I was younger, say, very early 20s, I used to gloat a lot about the fact that I seem to be so unlucky in love and the fact that I haven't found my one true love. There were times when I will cry myself to sleep and stress out on my love life.

Now, in my mid 20s, I give zero fucks about whether or not I will grow old alone in the future. ZERO FUCKS. To be very honest, I am enjoying my single life and I am willing to fight, avoid or repel anything or anyone who will attempt to take this new and improved happiness that I found. Right now, it's like I'm in the peak of my career, my womanhood, my independence and a whole lot more. It's like I'm just seeing things in an entirely different, new and better level and I'm immensely enjoying my life. If you have read my old posts, you will know that I consider myself in a renaissance-ish period. I am not saying that I want to stay single until the end of eternity because who the fuck wants to grow old alone, ayt? What I am saying is that, at this point in my life, I am content and happy with my relationship status. If someone will come to my life and make it a little or a lot more interesting and happy, then I'm all for that too BUT if that someone is a threat or becomes a threat to my new found happiness, then fuck life. I can manage on my own.

It's safe to say that I am already starting to welcome the idea of being a spinster. Better to be prepared, right? Especially, emotionally prepared. The fact that when it comes to my love life, I am not very lucky plus the fact that I am a shitty partner makes the probability of me staying single until I get old relatively high. Hahaha.

Come what may. I will hold on to my happiness. I will not let anyone take away the life I built again from scratch. I'll rise like an eagle, alone forever, if it comes to that. :) After all, I have mastered the art of being alone but not feeling lonely. :)


By the way, I spent most of the holidays enjoying my singlehood; watching movies, baking, watching a very long American TV series, reading novels. :) Here are some of my facebook posts:

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


XoXo,
Kimmy Girl