Coffee with Kimmy

I went camping this weekend in Calatagan Batangas and I felt so fucking free. Free from all the stress and pressure of life, free from all the hate, the sadness and the heartbreaks. For the period of time that I was there, I was not stressed, confused and heartbroken. I was free and happy.  You see, I have been heartbroken my entire life, I don't even know how not to be heartbroken anymore. So I'm grateful...I'm grateful for those times when I could forget how my heart is breaking and when the monsters were kept at bay. Needless to say, I needed that short vacation like I needed air to breathe. So....after drinking alcohol that night, I lied down on a blanket and watched the stars. I'm telling you, I almost cried just looking at them. At that moment, I felt like I was being swallowed by small shiny glittery gazillions of stars and I wanted to freeze that fraction of my lifetime. I willed time to freeze and repeatedly asked God if I could just stay...

I do believe that everything that happens, happens for a reason. There is no inconsequential moment. Every moment is unique, important and is destined to specifically happen for a purpose. Every breathe, every unexpected meeting, every blink, every 'hi', every tear, every trip, every smile, every 'no', every conversation, every victory, every loss, every heartache, everything...everything happens for a reason.