WARNING: OH SO GRIM POST
HEY Yaaaaa.
It's been a while, I know. I've been very busy and I've undergone a whole lot of emotional stress this past few months and if I'm going to be honest, I'm still stuck in this craziness and I've got absolutely no idea how to get myself out of this mess.
Most of the time, I wonder when I will ever get that something which I've been craving for since..who knows when: PEACE OF MIND.
I want to sleep at night not thinking of the future and of all my problems. I'll be taking the bar next year. I resigned from my work and I have no idea where I will get the money to finance my expenses for almost 1 year, let alone my family's needs, I still don't have a boyfriend and the pressure is rapidly rising everyday. I don't know maybe I'm just afraid that after I become a lawyer, my chances of growing old alone will shoot to the extremes. I haven't pulled out my records from my previous school and I still need to enroll additional English subjects for me to be eligible to taking the bar, both of which, I still haven't done until now. I need finances for my review which will start on November this year and again, I've got no idea where I am going to get that.
Ohhhh boy. You know what? I just want to take the bar. After November 2017, I will disappear into nothingness. I'll just collapse into thin air. Oooohh boy, you guys don't know how much I want to disappear into thin air right now.
Am I scared? If yes, then I haven't been this scared in like...forever. It's a different kind of fear. It's eating me alive.
So sorry for the grim blog entry. Hopefully, the next time I give you an update about me, it'll be all sugar and spice and everything nice.
SORRYYYYYY. I'M OUT!
Kimmybells
It's been a while, I know. I've been very busy and I've undergone a whole lot of emotional stress this past few months and if I'm going to be honest, I'm still stuck in this craziness and I've got absolutely no idea how to get myself out of this mess.
Most of the time, I wonder when I will ever get that something which I've been craving for since..who knows when: PEACE OF MIND.
I want to sleep at night not thinking of the future and of all my problems. I'll be taking the bar next year. I resigned from my work and I have no idea where I will get the money to finance my expenses for almost 1 year, let alone my family's needs, I still don't have a boyfriend and the pressure is rapidly rising everyday. I don't know maybe I'm just afraid that after I become a lawyer, my chances of growing old alone will shoot to the extremes. I haven't pulled out my records from my previous school and I still need to enroll additional English subjects for me to be eligible to taking the bar, both of which, I still haven't done until now. I need finances for my review which will start on November this year and again, I've got no idea where I am going to get that.
Ohhhh boy. You know what? I just want to take the bar. After November 2017, I will disappear into nothingness. I'll just collapse into thin air. Oooohh boy, you guys don't know how much I want to disappear into thin air right now.
Am I scared? If yes, then I haven't been this scared in like...forever. It's a different kind of fear. It's eating me alive.
So sorry for the grim blog entry. Hopefully, the next time I give you an update about me, it'll be all sugar and spice and everything nice.
SORRYYYYYY. I'M OUT!
Kimmybells
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