Midnight Blue

So. I'm writing this down just a couple of hours after I've finished reading the book. I can't contain it anymore. Right now, I have just come to terms with the fact that the intense feelings inside of me are not going away and on the contrary, they're getting more intense every second so If I don't let them all out, I might just explode into sweet sweet nothingness. It's official. I'm having a massive book hang over.

Last night, I started reading L.J. Shen's Midnight Blue and just like most of the best things that happened in my life, it blew me away unexpectedly. Yes, unexpectedly because the last book in her Vicious Series let me down. So I really don't have high expectations with this one and boy, was I wrong. Was I fucking wrong. Oh. My. Gosh. The words she used in that book are still hunting me hours after I read it and I don't doubt that they'll continue to hunt me in the coming days. The characters are so intense and memorable and distict. The heavy, thick and intense feelings it gave me got burried so deep inside of me I think I'm ruined for all other books (pun intended). Seriously. It's so fucking relatable. Alex Winslow is exactly my dream guy turned into a book character and I could see myself in Indigo "Stardust" Bellamy in so many ways I don't even know where to start. Oh, the things I'd do just to be Indie right now. (sigh)(deep sigh) 

The story is basically about the love story of a quirky blue-eyed girl and a sorry-ass rockstar. What I like the most about the book I guess is how both the characters were so broken in their own way and somehow, somehow, in the middle of the night, in a desserted hallway outside their hotel rooms, their hearts got cured by random conversations, silence and a passion they shared which is so intense they did not even see it coming. And after all the words have been uttered and made into art, they find themselves naked and vulnerable with so many questions in mind, so many inhibitions, so many fears but all of that did not matter because during those times, they were free. Ughh there are so many things I would like to say but my mind is not working well right now. 

So tell me? What do I do with my life? How do I move on with this? 😔