Coffee with Kimmy

        Photo credit:  thedreamslife Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.  Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 On my way to the coffee shop today, I heard something on the radio which made me think of things. The radio announcer said, "The right kind of love will choose the right decision. The right kind of love will not hurt others. The right kind of love will make you choose the right path." Then I remembered the bible verse cited above which ultimately led me to realize some things which are of great significance to ...

I am so many things right now. I am a grieving friend. One of my closest friends died recently and my heart was crushed. I am a heartbroken lover. I decided to give up and let someone go even though I am deeply madly in love with him. I am a dreamer who's hoping for the best. Always for the best. I am frustrated. I am sad. My heart is crying and I have so many things going on in my mind. God, please heal me.

Today, I decided to say goodbye. Goodbye to the idea that you are going to save me. Goodbye to all my delusions that someday, you'll be mine and mine alone. Goodbye to all the tears I've shed and will shed. Goodbye to being your Sunday and not just your Saturday night. Goodbye to my dream of becoming your wife. Goodbye to the pain. Goodbye to my love for you. Goodbye to you. Goodbye.