Me RN

I am so many things right now.

I am a grieving friend. One of my closest friends died recently and my heart was crushed.

I am a heartbroken lover. I decided to give up and let someone go even though I am deeply madly in love with him.

I am a dreamer who's hoping for the best. Always for the best.

I am frustrated. I am sad. My heart is crying and I have so many things going on in my mind.

God, please heal me.


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