Choices

"Take a chance on me."

These words are music to the ears. For a second there, it makes you feel so loved. It makes you think of things you haven't thought of in a while. Makes you dream of stuff you didn't even think you're capable of dreaming. It makes you remember things. It somehow reminds you of who you are or at least of who you were at a certain point in your life.


"Take a chance on me."

Don't you feel brave now? You suddenly feel like maybe you can take a chance on someone?  Just like that, you're not your old self anymore, you're not a shell with no insides anymore. Because just like that, you feel something.  And these days, feeling something is one heck of a deal to you because you are so used to feeling empty. There's that resounding voice inside of you..urging you to throw all your worries away, to leave all your uncertainties behind and just go for it. Take a chance on someone. Put your trust in him.

"Take a chance on me."

"Take a chance on me."

"Take a chance on me."

No. 

Breathe in. Breathe out. 

Labor over the whole thing. 

Give it time.

Promise yourself that this time, you'll be smart. 

The days when you can just say "fuck it" and then dive into a cliff are long gone.

The truth in the matter is that you actually have choices.

And the choices are not only black or white. It's not 'take a chance on someone' or 'don't take a chance on him' at all.

The truth in the matter is that you have 24800 choices. 

And included in those choices is the option to think over it. 

Lastly, contrary to what it's facially making you feel, it's not gonna kill you if you don't take a chance. You'll be fine. You'll live. You'll still be happy. You have yourself.

Honey, take it easy.  Give it time. you'll be fine.