Kimmy the Zombie

This week has been one helluva stressful and tiring week. My body clock is totally out of whack. I don't have any sense of time anymore. Sometimes I sleep the whole day and then I study the whole night till morning and then, I sleep and wake up after a couple of hours. If I couldn't get some more sleep , I'd go to the library to study. I'd stay there the whole day and then drink a bottle or two at night with friends and then go home at who knows what time hahaha. Then I'll sleep and wake up again at who knows what time. Uuuuuugggghh. I know. I know. I got to get my shit together. Gotta get my shit together.

I can't keep living like a zombie without any direction. But what can I do? I'm in the midst of my bar review and stress is getting into me. I'm catching up on my readings and I'm trying to keep up with my review schedule. I read at least 12 hours a day and if that's not stressful enough, I don't know what is anymore. Haven't had a continous 5 hours of sleep since who knows when. Sometimes, I don't even know if it's already morning or night. Soooooooo ideally, what I need to do right now is that.. I gotta get some sleep. I need to have a fixed schedule for everything. I gotta get my shit together.

On the other hand, I've never been a creature of habit. If this kind of schedule is working out for me, maybe I don't need to change it. Maybe it's part of this fucking life which I chose to live.  Only downside is that I'm not getting enough sleep but I can fix that. Uggggghhhhh. I know. Everything looks so fucked up at the moment but I don't care. As long as I'm getting my readings done, I don't care about having a normal life. All I care about now is that I get my shit done and it's being done soooooooooo maybe I can continue living like a zombie for a little while. 

XoXo,

Kimmy the Zombie