Scar Lover

"Bitch boys don’t do it for me.

Pretty boys sure as hell don’t do it for me.

Survivors turn me on."

- Axle's Brand (Death Chasers Series, Part 3) by C.M. Owens

Really, how many times have you been asked the question, "What type of guy do you like?"     In my case, countless times. A lotta people are curious, I guess, including but not limited to  my friends, my classmates, my suitors, the creepy guys who can't seem to grasp the meaning of 'not interested', the titas of manila who constantly monitor my love life, my long time ex boyfriend who, after everything's been said and done, still wants to know who the hell my type of guy is.

As to the answer, readers, let me tell you this. In a world full of 'I want a handsome/cute/k-pop star look alike boyfriend' kind of girls, I am, and I will always be an 'I fucking want someone with a lot of scars.' kind of girl.

Scars fascinate me. And no, I'm not talking about physical scars (although physical scars are somehow appealing to me too, I know, I'm weird. Deal with it hahaha). I'm talking about internal scars. The kind that stays with you for decades, the kind that molds you as a person, the kind that makes you strong, the kind that proves you are a real survivor. 

Yeah, a guy with scars like that fascinates me. Somehow, when I meet people and I look straight into their eyes, somehow....some-fucking-how, I know. I see through their souls and see how badly hurt they are. And that's when the need to take care of them kicks in. It's stupid most of the time. But that's who I am. I love wounded and scarred people. I like taking care of them. I like fixing them.

When I look at scarred people, I don't see the ugly part. I look at them as if they are masterpieces. I look at them as if they are the greatest living persons on this planet. And they are...once they get past their issues. Once they realize that they are capable of loving and being loved in return. 

Scarred people love hard. Boy, do I know.

Scarred people are strong people.

Scarred people are beautiful people.

Scarred men are definitely the type of men I like.

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Ughhh. I really need to cut this entry short cuz' I'm having an allergy attack now and I gotta take meds and other shit. Till next time loves~

Xoxo,

Kim