sesh

I don't tell people everything I know. Maybe...just maybe, for the longest time, that is how I was able to survive life... that's how I am still surviving. Maybe...just maybe, that is where I get my power. Maybe...just maybe, that is what sets me apart from others. 

Honey, don't get me wrong. I observe. I notice. I know. Most often than not, I understand. I just choose not to let people know how damn observant I am because once they know, I'll lose my edge over them. Once they know how much I know, they'll withhold information and they'll lose their trust. People like the feeling of being smarter than other people. I kinda let them believe that. That way, I'm one step ahead of them. That way, I have them wrapped around my fingers.

I notice. I may not act like it but I notice how the guy on the table across from me has been constantly throwing glances at me. He's doing it again now. I act like I don't  notice so he'll keep on doing what he's doing without hesitation.

I notice. On my way to the coffee shop today, I noticed that small flower on the picture and how it has impossibly lived through rough environment and rough times. Reminds me of myself. Reminds me of a lot of people I know.

I know. I know a lot of things but why should I make you feel insecure and scared because of the things I know? I'll let you live a peaceful life. I'll let you believe that you're better than me. I'll let you do just that.

Knowledge is power. Oh, how true that statement is. So fucking true. One day, when the circumstances make such information ripe for picking, that's when I attack. That's when I get to use my aces. That is when I get to win...again. 

I didn't lose, ayt? Actually, I already won....and how cool is it that someday, I get to win again? 

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Peace motherfucker,

-K